heck no. ive got so many people that i love and as much as i think they shouldnt, they love me back. im hopeful that my life improves, and im figuring out how to be and enjoy being myself. im figuring out how to express myself to people and through art. im discovering music that makes me feel good. and again, the people i love so much and who love me so much.
im never gonna make it happen myself and im kinda scared that somethings gonna make me die
had a kobo clara HD for a bit and liked it, but a kid broke it beyond repair (kinda impressive of the kid tbf) and i decided to get an android one (Meebook M6) for the freedom to do whatever reading in whatever ecosystem, including my local library’s borrowbox, but i do prefer drm free stuff :)
i have a Meebook M6 android ereader for this exact reason!
this is gonna be my first time really doing one ^^
i want to work on my awareness of my volume speaking and stuff, read 30 books, and work on voice training :3
random old android phones (theyre fun)
hard drives random people give to me (promise ill use them eventually!)
shadow plushies (hes cool ok!)
ikea otter plushies (people knew i love otters, got me them, im committed to the bit now)
i have a lot of plushies in general but most of them are different
i generally prefer foss - i use arch (btw), all my phone apps aside from a few that dont get internet access anyway, i avoid stuff by big companies for themost part - but i understandit isnt practical to have everything be foss. if i didnt have access to whatsapp, i couldnt message my gf, any of my friends or family, so with things like that, i compromise - in this case, using a matrix bridge. also, if something is closed source but probably fine, ill allow it, but foss is my preference. im very passionate about it :3
it gets a bit rough with things like youtube, i love newpipe and freetube but girl google makes it such a pain with the constant IP blocks qwq
quite a few modern Sonic the Hedgehog games
some of the games have been quite mid (though i still enjoy anything sonic for the most part, thankfully i dont look at things very critically and can just enjoy a piece of media) but the soundtracks rarely fail to get me in a good mood!
im glad they exist for emergencies but i have a few reasons that i prefer to avoid them. theres the thing with germs, and also being on binary, things can be a little uncomfortable with gendered bathrooms, and urinals are the worlds worst idea, i hate that i ever had to use them! gender neutral bathrooms are a bit easier for me. they can be convenient at times but i will always try to hold it til im home if possible personally
only person i hide absolutely nothing from is my gf, i definitely present differently around different people, especially family
happy cake day you silly individual 🙃
my parents just wont let me anyway :/ im trying to consider alternatives until im old enough to make the decision myself
maybe i should really try to get into doing that, i struggled with it so i tended to lose motivation but if its gonna help me with this its worth doing
yeah they sound really good, i struggle with pills for a few reasons but those reasons would be worth getting over imo, but i dont even get the chance
unfortunately, asking never goes well, i try to be verynice about it but mum just wont let me, so i always have to find alternative coping mechanisms
yes it can be very similar to that sometimes!
i did get covid (thrice) but this happened a while after even the last infection, i think its just been a very developmntal couple of years either way and ive learned lots about myself
they are seperate issues yes, sorry if it seemed like i was lumping them together
yes i do have adhd, hence the crosspost! i coulda specified 😅 unfortunately my mum wont let me get medication :/ and im a bit worried theyll reduce the parts of me i do like too lol
pre covid, i was a (very young, just at a local kids stage school) theatre kid. i was naturally loud and yappy, quite stereotypical really. over covid, butmainly after around 2023-2024 has been an extremely big point for the development of my personality
now, i was used to people seeing this loud and frankly annoying version of me, and i was used to being it, so i end up reverse-masking bif thatmakes sense because people can be very judgemental to me of any change (and my family wonders why i dont tell them about things lol)
so habitually, i continue to be loud and annoying
seconding this, my gf struggles with tech, i put her laptop on linux mint and shes had a much easier time using it