I’ve pretty much hit rock bottom and come to the conclusion that I can’t stay on my current trajectory. It’s already cost me one, if not two, relationships, and I’m tired of dating on hard mode. I’m worried I might be too far gone, so it would be immensely helpful to hear from someone who’s been in the same place and managed to turn things around.
I can manage a week or two with the power of self loathing but once the urges come back I’m really, and I mean really good at coming up with excuses.
Did it affect your relationship with him?
Yes it absolutely did to the point where I don’t think I’d want to talk about women with him ever. We do speak but rarely and mostly about superficial stuff altough that’s mostly for unrelated reasons. He’s not a bad guy but still not exactly a good dad.