I used to be a Medic and Firefighter-- in short I was an adrenaline junkie. And now I’m old and retired. And my body is bent and currently a bit broken. I seek to learn how to be dull.

Despite the enjoyment of watching the hummingbirds at my feeders and the light gardening I do. I still think I could become even more satisfied with my dullness.

Guide me to complete dullness!

  • schipelblorp@sh.itjust.works
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    1 day ago

    I think the trick with this stuff is actually being in the right frame of mind.

    I was really in a striving frame of mind at my last run-through of meditation, constantly critiquing, criticizing, wanting, and it was just a bad experience all around.

    Since then, I’ve kind of come to a weird form of self-acceptance and also an understanding that everything is ultimately meaningless (including human social progress, which I have clung to unconsciously all my life)… think I’d have a better chance at getting something out of meditation now, which raises the question of it it’s unavoidably sometimes just used as more striving by people.