01:15 (AM that is, but using 24 hour time format doesn’t need AM/PM) here… zero sleep, listening to a bunch of depression music… :/
Living with family (family of origin, that is) but half of my family members are away… especialy mom…
You only learn to appreciate someone¹ once they’re gone… this time for 30 days… one day its gonna be forever… 🥺 (¹mom that is, Idk how to feel about older brother, still haven’t fixed the broken relationship since those series of fights about 7-9 years ago… )
Mom’s so busy with my brother’s marriage plans, haven’t have much time to talk to me. Idk what to even say on the phone… I just wanna hear her voice… I kinda have a panic attach if i don’t hear her voice or if she takes too long to respond…
I’m just feeling very suicidal rn
$4500 in debt?
Now I kind a feel guilty…
Cant go in details, but basically: My parents owns the current house I live in, and they have small bussiness/investments and like has like a “small fortune¹” of assets… (¹not sure if I’m using that word right, I’ve been immersed in the English-language world since I was 8 but still feel like I don’t know how some wording/phrasing work lol)
Technically not mine stuff (not at the moment at least) but still… they’re still financially supporting me cuz I’m just depressed af and have no independence and suvival skills.
Sorry about your situation…